Nlmg Moments Flashcards
Intro
‘I’ve been a carer’/‘Okay, maybe I AM boasting now’/‘I’m a Hailsham student’/‘which is enough by itself to get people’s backs up’/Hailsham. I bet that was a beautiful place’ (one of the carers she was looking after)/‘This was all a long time ago, so I might have some of it wrong’
Setting of Hailsham
Ch1 ‘South playing field’ ‘Sports pavillion’/‘I still see things that will remind me of Hailsham’/ (in last chapter)’I don’t go searching for it’
Tommy and tantrums
Ch1. ‘put a hand on his arm’ ‘arms were still flailing about’/‘he knocked my hand’ ‘hit the side of my face’ /‘burst into thunderous bellowing’ ‘his face scarlet[/‘“wild furied”’/ called ‘Mad Animal’ by ruth/‘ we relished the prospect of Tommy grt humiliated yet again’/tommy wearing ‘His favourite polo shirt’? Laura ‘mimicking’ Tommy/ in next chapter ‘I’ve grown up a bit’ I had a talk with Miss Lucy’ ‘She said I shouldn’t wprry’ ‘Not mind what other people were saying’ ‘She was SHAKING’ ‘with rage’ ‘furious deep inside’
Tommy being bullied at Hailsham
‘ he was a good runner’ ‘pranks’ ‘worm in his cereal’ ‘cleaned a toilet with his toothbrush’
Exchanges at Hailsham
‘Four times a year’ ‘paid in Exchange tokens’ ‘by work done by students’ ‘only means, aside from the sales’ ‘of building up a collection of personal possessions’ ‘how you were regarded at Hailsham’ ‘how good you were at ‘creating’ ‘Jackies giraffes’(remembered by ruth in recovery centre)
Miss geraldine
‘ everyone’s favourite gaurdian’ comforted you’ ‘
Miss lucy
‘Most sporting of the guardians’ ‘furious deep inside’ ‘she said we weren’t being taught enough’
Madame
‘She was French or Belgium’ ‘ sharp grey suit’ ‘she wouldn’t talk to us’/ ‘swarm’ ‘all around her’ ‘she was afraid of us in the same way someone might be afraid of spiders’ (a learnt fear) / in last part miss emiliy says ‘We’re ALL afraid of you’
Isolated at hailsham
‘long narrow road’ ‘gate’ ‘fair distance off’ (ambigious) ‘Days could sometimes go by without us seeing a vehicle’, a car was a rarity ‘sight’ ‘cause bedlam during a class’
Feeling of being alien to humans
Ch3 ‘ dread the idea of your hand brushing against theirs’ ‘The first time you glimpse yourself through the eyes of a person like that, it’s a cold moment’ ‘walking past a mirror’ ‘suddenly it shows you something’ ‘troubling and strange’
Miss emily
‘Deliberate voice; ;we were all pretty scared of her’ ‘assembly’ ‘turning a frosty eye towards any whispering’ ‘unworthy of privilege’ ‘misuse of opportunity’ ‘we were all very special, being Hailsham students’ ‘your heart sank’ ‘she’d always know you were there hiding’ (contrast to when the students seek out madame and she is in the shadows :’someone listening behind us in the darkened half of the room’
Miss lucy qustioned by students about gallery
‘ Why does Madame take out things anyway’ ‘All I can tell you today is that it’s for a good reason’ ‘One day, I hope, it’ll be explained to you’ (which it is when kathy and tommy visit madame in pt3)
Horses game with ruth
‘My BEST horse’ ‘I can’t let you ride on HIM’ ‘you’ve got to come NOW’ ‘Ruth brought it all to an end, claiming I was deliberately tiring out her horses’ ‘saying I was doing everything wrong’
Woods
‘ it was like they cast a shadow over the whole of Hailsham’ ‘top of the hill’ ‘looming in the distance’ ‘safest’ ‘you couldn’t see them from any of the windows’ ‘you never really got away from them’ ‘Marge K’ ‘forced open her eyes’ ‘sobbing night of terror’
Rumours abou the woods
Boy ‘run off beyond the Hailsham borders’ ‘His body had been found two days later’ ‘tied to a tree with the hands and feet chopped off’ / ‘girl’s ghost wandered through these trees’ ‘climbed over a fence just to see what it was like’ gaurdians said ‘she wasn’t allowed’ to be let back in desite her ‘pleading’
Chess
‘Ruth would often pause to study a game’ ‘Amazingly dim’ ‘She’d tell me about some move she’d spotted that neither player had seen’ / if brought up ‘she sighed’ ‘pretended she had something else really urgent’ ‘finally cornered her’ ‘vauge varient on chess’ ‘each piece moved ina n L-shape’ ‘she didnt know how to play’ ‘disappointed’
Pencil case
‘Claiming’ ‘gift from Miss Geraldine’ to test ruth looked in ‘pages of the register’ onse can see ‘all the things people had bought’ ‘complete loss for words’ ‘for once’ ‘verge of tears’ ‘didnt we all dream’ ‘from time to time’ ‘gaurdian’ ‘bend the rules’ doing something special for us’ ‘Ruth walked off’
Tape
‘I still have a copy’ most prised possessions’ ‘songs after dark’ ‘cigerette’ on cover ‘got so secretive about the tape’ ‘track number three’ ‘Never Let Me Go’ ‘imagine’ ‘told she couldnt have babies’ ‘miracle’ ‘she has a baby’ ‘she’s so afraid’ ‘something will happen’ ‘holding this baby very close’ Madame ‘crying’/‘sobbing’ / pt3 ‘ I saw a new world coming rapidly’ ‘holding’ ‘the old kind world’/. ‘Upset’ ‘abot going missing’ ruth gives her ‘twentu classic dance tunes’ ‘especially now ruth has gone’ ‘one of my most precious possessions’
Norfolk at hailsham
Ch6. ‘ gap in Miss Emily’s calender collection’ ‘none of them had a single picture of Norfolk ‘lost corner’
Miss lucy talk about cigerettes
Ch6- after rounders match
‘ I did smoke; ‘for you’ ‘it’s much,much worse’ ‘You’re SPECIAL’ ‘keeping yourself healthy ‘much more important’ for ‘each of you than it is for me’
Miss lucy talk about futures
‘You get terrible accidents sometimes’ (after laura ‘histerical impersonation’ ‘getting electrocuted’) ‘your lives our set out for you’ ‘donate your vital organs’ ‘brought into the world for a purpose’ ‘we’d been ‘told and not told’’
Sex at hailsham
Ch8and9 ‘Nuts and bolts of how you did it’ ‘skeleton through various contortions’ ‘treat sex as something pretty special’ ‘completely impossible’ have babies’ ‘respect our physical needs’ beautiful gift’ ‘as long as both people really wanted it’ different theories as to why the gaudians encouraged it ‘ kidneys and pancreas didn;t work properly’ ‘tryingto tease out clues’
Kathy and privacy
‘Create the illusion the place wasn’t crawling iwth students’ ‘secret game;
Miss lucy in room
Ch8 ‘Room 22’ ‘room was darker’ ‘blinds had been pulled’ ‘scrawling furious lines over a page with a pencil’ movements ‘ much more angry’ something pretty significant HAD happened’
Ruth and tommy
Ch8 ‘ they’d been a couple’ ‘walking around with arms around each other;
Ruth and tommy breaking up and wanting to get back together
Ch9 ‘You’re the only one I trust’ ‘make a fresh start’ ‘we can’t afford to waste time’ (kathy to tommy) ‘good chance for you’ ‘Dont mess it up’ (ruth to kathy when works)’thank me’ ‘sorting it all out so well’ ‘i was most definatey in her good books’
Tommy’s chunk of mud on back
Ch9 ‘Sizeable chunk of mud on his rugby shirt’ laura shouted ‘you got poo poo on your back’ came to a dead halt’ ‘face like thunder (link to ‘thunderous bellowing’)/ kathy ‘handed’ calender ‘to him ‘marching past me’
Tommy and elbow incident
‘UNZIP’ ‘you’ve got to remember I was still young’ ‘My heart sank’ ‘i dont trust any of the others; ;strap up his arm in a splint’
Kathy and tommy talk about miss lucy changing jer mind
‘ I made a mistake’ ‘when i said what i did ‘ art ‘Negligable’ or ‘incompetent’
Training at hailsham for outside world
‘Culture briefing’ ‘role play’ ‘various people’ ‘see out there’
The cottages
Ch10- ‘remains of a farm’ ‘Keffers’ ‘grumpy old guy’ ‘digustingly implied’ ‘we weren’t doing enough’ ‘to keep the place up’ ‘mop up after the floods’
Why don’ t they ever run away from the cottages
Ch10(start pt2) ‘we didnt even walk about the surrouning countryside’ not ‘afraid exactly’ ‘didn’t seem possible’ ‘we were just bewildered’ after a year ‘develop a habit of taking long solitary walks’
Ruth and tommy relationship at cottages
Veterans/seniors ‘treated them as a long-established couple’ ‘ looke immature at the cottages
Kathy stands up for herself against ruth
Questions about ‘hit Tommy on the arm’ ‘not something worth copying’ ‘not what people really do’ ‘normal life’ ‘poor little Kathy’ ‘Ruth’s got big new friends’ ‘Ive managed to move on, make new friends
Ruth and kathys confusing relationship at the cottages
Ch11- ‘Quarelling over all kind of things’ ‘at the same time’ ‘confiding’ in each other
Sex at the cottages
‘Functnal’ ‘because of the cold’ under a ton of blankets’ one-nighters
Natura succesor
En of pt1 - ch9
Cynthia says ‘ I suppose you’re the natural successor’
Harry at hailsham
End of pt1-ch9
‘I had my eye’’chose him for a number of reasons’(‘he’d definately done it before’ ‘didn’t fancy him’ ‘didn;t find him sick making’. ‘Sure I WOULD have had sex with harry’ if the natural successor business
Desires
Ch11. Kathy questions ruth ‘ you just really have to do it’ ‘might be something not quite right’ ‘that’s strange’ ‘does sound a bit wierd’
Two ruths
‘Two ruths wouldnt merge’ ‘one ruth’ ‘trying to impress the veterans’ ‘wouldnt hesitate to ignore me’/ ‘ruth from hailsham’ ‘could absolutely trust’
Porn mags
Ch11 ‘steves magazines’ ‘drive old Keffers mad’ /. ‘Boiler hut’ ‘moved through the pages quickly’ ‘checked each models face’/
Tommy says ‘your face’ ‘sad’ ‘bit scared’/ in norfolk kathy confeses ‘if i find her picture’ ‘explain it’
Idea of possibles
Ch12 first introduced /
‘Both intrigued and disturbed us’ ‘when you were out there yourself’ ‘kept an eye out’ ‘glimpse you future’ ‘get SOME insight into what you were deep down’
Chrissie and rodney
Ch12 first introduced/
‘Really welcomed us’ when they first joined, she looked like ‘wicked witch’, ‘he’ ‘under chrissies influence’
Dream futures
Ch12- ‘mainly us newcomers’ talked about dream futures, ‘older ones’ ‘who’d started their training’ ‘sighted’ ‘leave the room’/ ruth was ‘engrossed’ ‘not one of steves magazines’ ‘bright cheerful things’ ‘with newspapers’ ‘beautifuly modern open-plan office’ ‘Now THAT would be a PROPER place to work’ ‘ruth tell us ‘ ‘all the details’ ‘dyamic, go-ahead type’
Ruth in car on way to norfolk
‘Leaned forwards’ ‘tommy and i’ ‘couldnt hear anything’ ‘couldnt talk to’ ‘see each other’/ kathy suggested ‘ swap seats’ ‘i was threatening to undermine her’
Cafe in norfolk
‘Virtually suspended over the sea’ ‘cardboard notice’ ‘look’’staring eye drawn inside each ‘o’’ ‘burst out laughing’ ‘cozy little moment’ ‘left behind the bad feeling’
Visiting carers disagreement
‘Not SUPPOSED to visit carers”(c). ‘Kathy HATES to be naughty’ (r) ‘so we’d better not’
Deferrals
Ch13 first introduced/ ‘you’re REALLY lucky’ ‘ask for your donations to be put back’ ‘QUALIFIED’ ‘you were in love with each other’ ‘show it’
Tommy doesn’t play along
Chrissie talking about ‘the rules’ for deferrals ruth says ‘told us a few things’ tommy ‘i dont know what you;re talking about’ ruth says tommy ‘isnt a real hailsham student’ ‘left out of everything’ ‘people were always laughing at him’
Woolworths in norfolk
Ch14- ruth and chrissie ‘havingsome sort of tete-a tete’ talking about the ‘rumour’ (deferals) ‘broke off’ after ‘ruth saw’ kathy and ‘she gave me a really dirty look’
The office in norfolk
‘Kept on staring’ ‘tremor of excitement’ in rodneys voice when he said ‘over in that corner’ indication ruth’s possibles , ‘one’ ‘gave us an uncertain wave’ ‘ broke the spell’ ‘took to our heals’
The gallery in norfolk
‘Portway studios’ rruth suggested to follow her possible ‘let’s see where she goes’ ‘woman was too close’ ‘less she seemed like ruth’ ‘feeling that grew among us’ ‘almost tangibly’
Chrissie and rodney stating that isnt ruths possible
I thing we’re agreed’ ‘that ISNT ruth’ ruth gets defensive and says that they would think differenty if ‘it was YOUR possible’
Ruths outburst
‘We’re modelled from TRASH’ ‘junkies, prostitutes, winos, tramps’ says that the gallery owner wouldnt have ‘talked to us like that’ ‘of she’d known what we really were’ ‘you look in the gutter’ rubbish bin’ ‘down the toilet’
Tape in norfolk
‘Ruth was getting people to look for it’ tommy looked for it ‘did try really hard’ he had planned ‘go to norfolk’ ‘ill find it there for her’ ‘everything suddenly felt perfect’ tommy ‘wish i’d found it’
Gallery theory
Revisited by tommy and kathy in norfolk in ch15 ‘Revealed what you were like inside’ ‘revealed your soul’ ‘THEY NEED SOMETHING TO GO ON’ ‘could decide’ ‘what’s a good match’ (in pt 3)’your art will reveal your inner selves’ art will display your souls
Tommy’s drawings
Ch15 ‘havent told anyone’ ‘not even Ruth’ ‘doing them really small. Tiny’ ‘different details’ ‘how they’d protect themselves’ ‘reach things’ later in pt 2 ‘densely detailed ‘obsessive precision’ when shown in part 3 ‘strong mix of emotions’ ‘engulfed me’ ‘felt relief, gratitude, sheer delight’
The trio back. Together again
‘With the darkness setting in over those long empty roads’ ‘three of us were close again;
Secrecy about the tape and then ruth finding it
Ch16 ‘ always made sure’ ‘not to leave it out’ ‘on top of the pile ‘ ‘guilty secret’/ ruth inds it’ so tommy found it for you’ ‘neither of you told me’ ‘norfolk thing was true ;lost corner of England’ ‘the conversation’ ‘was controlled by Ruth’
Bus shelter
Ch16 and 17- ‘old bus shelter’ ‘musty and damp after a recent thunderstorm’ (argument over tape earlier in chapter) ‘buses had stopped coming ages ago’ ‘bus stop sign has been taken away’ ‘shelter itself’ ‘lovingly constructed wooden hut’ ‘cobwebs upon the rafters’
Graveyard
Ch16- ‘rambling grounds; ‘lovely old church’ ‘old gravestones leaning in the grass’ ‘overgrown’ ‘peaceful’ / ruth says tommy has been telling her ‘about his big theory’ ‘very kindly’ ‘share in it too’ ‘had to really dig’ ‘sweety boy’ ‘sweety gums’/ ruth says kathy finds tommys drawungs ‘ a complete hoot’ tommy looked’ really child-like again’ kathy initially wants to’ deny it’ but ‘in the end’ ‘stayed silent’
Kathy reflects on the seperation of the three after the graveyards
‘Wasn’t until a long time afterwards’ ‘realised the significance’ ‘until them so closely interwoven’ ‘could unravel and seperate’ (link to clown) ‘powerful tides tugging is apart’ shoulve ‘kept a tighter hold of one another’ (tommys analogy of river)
Ruth bitchy to kathy
End of pt 2 ch17 ‘tommy doesnt see you like that’ ‘he thinks the world of you’ ‘doesnt like girls whoce been with’ ‘this person and that’
Kathy leaves to become a carer
Abrupt ending to pt 2- ‘i was now one of the ones leaving ‘kept a certain distance’ from tommya nd kathy ‘didnt really talk properly again’ ‘ i was saying my goodbyes’
Being a carer
Introduced at start of pt3 ‘suited me fine’ ‘brought the best out of me’ ‘Then, there’s the solitude’ ‘ive actually grown to quite like’
Kathy meets laura in her car
Example of a carer who struggles ‘flash of the old laura’ ‘none of that came’ ‘began quizzing her’ ‘how ruth had been ‘ ‘always telling everyone what to do’
Hailsham closing
Laura says ‘its wierd.’ ‘thinking its all gone now’ ‘sell the house’ ‘hotel chain’ (link to the recovery centre being an old family holiday camp)./
Kathy says to rodger c ‘what’ll happen to all the students’ ‘i’d meant US’ ‘ all seperated now’ ‘somehow still linked by the place we’d come from’
Balloon moment
‘Clown’ ‘ballons had faces and shapes ears’ ‘like a little tribe’ ‘bobbing in the air’ ‘’above their owner, waiting for him’ ‘securely twisted together’ ‘in a tight grip’ kathy worrying that ‘single bllon’ ‘sail off up into that cloudless sky’ ‘hailsham clsing’ is like ‘someone coming along’ ‘pair of shears’ ‘snipping the balloon stings’ ‘above the man’s fist’ ‘no real sense’ ‘balloons belonged with each other any more’
Kaths and ruth as adults
Ch18- ‘genuinely delighted to be with each other’ ‘sense of something not being right grew’ / ruth ‘came in wrapped in a towel’ ‘real wariness’ ‘ruth didnt trust me’
Visiting the boat as an idea
Ch18 ‘stranded in the marshes’ kathy ‘think about calling in on Tommy’ ‘at last, we talked about Tommy’
Kingsfield
‘General feeling’ ‘never properly finished converting the place’ ‘falls way short of a place like Ruth’s centre’ ‘too stuffy or to draughty’ ‘holiday cap’
The three reunite
Ch19 ‘I just stepped out of the car’ ‘Ruth stayed where she was’ ‘his gaze fell on me’ ‘why it was me he hugged first’ ruth had ‘serious, almost frozen look’ ‘like tommy and i were people in a play he was watching’
Kathy interrupts ruth
Ch19- ‘we dont need to hear every last thing’ tommy ‘sudden laughing noise’ ‘kind of explosion’ tommy says ‘thats exactly what i was about to say’ ‘felt that Tommy and I had come closer together again after all the years’
Barbed wire
‘Ruth and tommy standing behind me’ ‘waiting almost like children’ ‘hint of a limp in his gait’ ‘ruths breath coming less and less easily’ / ‘tilted and rusted’ ‘yanked all over the place’ ‘ruth’ ‘came to an abrupt halt’ anxiously’ ‘didnt say we had to get past barbed wire’ kathy ‘its not going to be difficult’ tommy realised ‘how frail she was’ ‘we both went to her’ ‘i took an arm’ ‘tommy supported her elbow’ ‘let go of ruth only to pass through myself’ ‘held up’ ‘as high as I could’ ‘ with us there’ she seemed to lose her fear’
Changing nature of kathy and ruths relationship
‘Wasnt the way we ganged up on her’ ‘she’d just take it’ ‘old dayd’’without striking back; now there WAS something uncertain abou her walk’ /‘glanced over my shoulder’ ‘tommy was again holding ruth by the arm’ are on a tree trunk ‘hollow and more emaciated than mine’
Ruths dream
Ch19- ‘room 14’ ‘looking out of the winder’ ‘outside was flooded’ ‘rubbish floadtng by under my window’ ‘nice and tranquil’
Row over chrissie and rodneys donations
Ch19- ‘ i think it happens much more than they ever tell’ ‘My carer over there’ ‘They’re really careful these days’ Kathy ‘He was sad’ ‘he was okay’ ruth ‘it wasnt him n that table’ ‘trying to cling onto life’ ‘after all it’s what we’re SUPPOSED to be doing’
Row offices
Ch19- in car with rtk ‘poster’ ‘open-plan offce, smart smiling people’ ‘I’m not sure I do {remember about the offices}’ ‘she said quietly’ ‘I think I do’ ‘almost a whisper’ ‘you should at least have tried’
Ruths confession about desires
Ch19 in car- ‘ dont expect you to forgive me’ ‘lied about your urges’ ‘i’d like you to forgive me’
Ruth’s suggestion about tommy and kathy
‘I should have been you two’ ‘you’ve got to try and get a deferral’ ‘a real chance’ ‘ Madame’s address’ ‘ran a few risks’ ‘took me a long time’/. ‘All the suspcions’ ‘evaporated’
Ruths death
Ch19 ‘flood of pain made her twist away from me’ ‘scarily unnatural’
Kathy becoming tommy’s carer
Ruth questions ‘thought any more about becoming Tommy’s carer?’ Kathy says to ruth when shes dying ‘i’m going to become tommy’s carer as soon as i can’
Kathy and tommy sex and love
Ch20 - nearing end ‘Years seemed to melt away’ ‘finally started having sex’ ‘if we left it too long’ ‘just get harder’ ‘to make natural part of us’ ‘defferal’ ‘real drawback if we’d never had sex’ ‘lack of intimacy’/ ‘someting in Tommy’s manner’ ‘tinged with sadness’ What a pity we left it so late’
Decide about deferrals
Kathy’ we just go there and ask her’ tommy ‘so wht’s the plan’
Meet madame
Ch21- ‘dressed in her neat grey suit’ ‘like ones she’d always worn’ ‘polite ‘excuse me!’’ ‘Decided in a second WHAT WE WERE’ ‘stiffen’ ‘s if a pair of large spiders weas set to crawl towards her’ after introduced ‘ she smiled again, through the smile didn’t seem to be for us’. ‘You poor creatures’
Tommy and kathy ask for defferal
21
‘Sure that you’re in love? How can you know’ ‘voice sounded almost sarcastic’ ‘little tears in her eyes’
22- ‘this rumour, from long before your time’ ‘I made sure to stamp out good and proper’ You’ve HOPED carefully’ ‘there’s no truth in the rumour’ ‘I’m sorry’
Miss emily turns up
Ch21- ‘someone listening behind us in the darkened half of the room’ ‘figure in the wheelchair’ ‘frail’ madames ‘eyes blazing towards us’
Miss emily speaks about her wheelchair
Ch22- ‘i’m hoping this contraption wont be a permenant fixture’
Miss emilys ‘bedside cabinet’
‘Beautiful object’ ‘had it with me at Hailsham’ ‘protective padding’ ‘They handle it rougly’
Clones
22-‘shadowy objects in test tubes’ ‘we demonstrated to the world’ ‘students’ ‘reaed in humane, cultivated environment’ ‘grow as sensitive and intelligent as any ordinary human being’
Ethics of rearing clones
‘There wasnt time to take stock’ ‘ask the sensible questions’ ‘people preferred to believe these organs appeared from nowhere’ ‘how can you ask a world’ ‘cancer is curable’ ‘go back to the dark days’
Morningdale scandal
Ch22- ‘possibility of having children with enhanced characteristics’ ‘reminded them of a fear they always had’ ‘generation of created children who’d take their place in society’ ‘SUPERIOR to the rest of us’ ‘world didnt want to be reminded of how the donation programme really worked’
Tommy questions madame once more
22- ‘your life must now run the course that’s been set for it’ ‘it may look like you were simply pawns in a game’ ‘you were lucky pawns’
Why miss lucy was fired
22- ‘she begun to have these ideas’ ‘made more aware’ ‘best for students in the long run’ ‘we gave you your Childhoods’’she had to go’
Madames dedication
Ms emily says she has ‘given EVERYTHING for you’
Tommy scream
22- ‘stopped by an inpenetrable thicket’, ‘wind here was really powerful’ tommy ‘raging, shouting, flinging his fists and kicking out’ ‘i tried to run to him’ ‘mud sucked my feet down’ ‘he slipped’ (football link and tantrum) ‘fell out of view into the blackness’ ‘distorted with fury’ ‘kept holding on’ ‘felt the fight go out of him’ ‘like we were holding onto each other’ ‘only waay to stop us being swept away it othe night’
Tommy always knew
‘You always knew’ ‘when you used to go bonkers’ ‘maybe i did’ ‘somewhere deep down’ soemthing the rest of you didnt’
Kathy and tommy growing apart
23- ‘animal pictures’ ‘If i came in he’d stop and put them away’ ‘identify himself with the other donors at the centre’ ‘litte prickle of resentment’ ‘i didnt understand’ ‘was not yet a donor’
4th donations
23- ‘treated with special respect’ ‘if you knew for certain you’d complete’ ‘it would be easier’ ‘even if you’ve technically completed’ ‘you’re still conscious’ ‘watch ypur remaining donations until they switch you off’ ‘it’s horror movie stuff’
Tommy tells kathy he no longer wants her as a carer
23‘ i think i ought to get a different carer’ ‘dont want to be that way infront of you’’its what ruth wanted’ ‘wouldnt necessarily wanted you to be my carer through this last bit’ ‘i was furious’ ‘rush would have understood’ ‘she was a donor’
Tommy and kathys last few weeks together
23‘Suprisingly tranquil’
Current metaphor
23-‘Two people in the water’ ‘trying to hold onto each other’ ‘the current is too t=strong’ ‘got to let go’ ‘drift apart’ we’ve loved each other all our lives’ ‘we cat stay together forever’
Kathy reflects on relationship with ruth
23- tommy asks if kathy is ‘glad’ that ‘ruth completed before finding out everything we did in the end’ ‘ made her see whatever damage she’d once done to us’ ‘couldn’t be repaired as easil’ ‘ive got no anger left for her now’
Kathy reflects on memories
Ch23- ‘ i lost ruth’ then i lost tommy’ ‘i wont lose my memories of them’ ‘i suppose i lost Hailsham too’
The ending
23- ‘i drove up to norfolk’ ‘two lines of barbed wire’ ‘only thing breaking the wind for miles’ ‘torn plastic sheets’ ‘bits of old carrier bags’ ‘ this was where everyhing i’d ever lost since my childhod had washed up’ ‘if i waited long enough’ ‘tiny figure would appear on the horizon’ ‘until i’d see it was Tommy’ ‘tears rolled down my face’ ‘turned back’ ‘drive off to wherever it was I was supposed to be’
Secret gaurd
secret gaurd’ worked on presents to give her’ ‘protect her’ from ‘plot to abduct Miss Geraldine’/ Ruth says ‘I’ll let you be one of her secret guards’
Connotations of the ‘veterans’
War heros- ironic or foreshadowing as they havent gone through true battle yet
