Pain To Be Loved

Question 1

It’s a mess in here. I’m planning on moving out soon so everything is kinda chaotic.

Answer 1

Is that why this mattress is on the first floor?

Question 2

Yea, I have an upstairs room that I usually rent out to people but it’s a mess right now.

Answer 2

Well… It’s pretty cool you got your own place.

Question 3

Jacob, what do you want?

Answer 3

I mean, how you doing? I haven’t seen you in such a long time.

Question 4

Jacob, the the last time I saw you was the first time I tried…

Answer 4

Yea, I remember… hey, what more can you expect from a bunch of young dumb high schoolers.

Question 5

Is that really what you’re gonna say right now?

Answer 5

Sorry, I just… I don’t really know what to say.

Question 6

You can start by telling me what you need help with.

Answer 6

Well… I know this might be a lot to ask for but I just need somewhere to stay right now.

Question 7

I get that.

Answer 7

You do?

Question 8

You think I wasn’t in that situation once?

Answer 8

I hear ya… so… you still talk to anyone from school?

Question 9

No… ha, your kind of the first person I’ve talked to in a minute, aside from my sister.

Answer 9

What, you just don’t go out much?

Question 10

Don’t really have too many friends.

Answer 10

Hey friends are a hassle.

Question 11

You could say that.

Answer 11

Well if it makes you feel better I’m kind of the same.

Question 12

Haha, you sound just the same.

Answer 12

What?

Question 13

Just your responses. You still sound like how you did in high school.

Answer 13

Is that a complement or a shot?

Question 14

Neither.

Answer 14

I kinda remember you being a bit more bubbly.

Question 15

People change.

Answer 15

Yea…

Question 16

Listen, you can stay just not for long, I got work and the moving out stuff.

Answer 16

I would’ve thought you’d be more fearful to have someone like me stay.

Question 17

I still remember you have a kind heart.

Answer 17

Thanks I guess… Well hey since you’re letting me stay I can pay you with this?

Question 18

Why did you mention that?

Answer 18

I don’t have too much money so I figure this would be enough… you don’t have to…

Question 19

No! That’s fine.

Answer 19

You want it?

Question 20

Christie Relapses

Answer 20

Hey, what’s the matter?

Question 21

I shouldn’t have done that.

Answer 21

Are you ok?

Question 22

No, this is bad. This is really bad!

Answer 22

Christie it’s ok. You’re ok.

Question 23

…Don’t sit there and tell me it’s ok when it’s not ok!

Answer 23

Shit, I’m sorry, I didn’t know!

Question 24

Jacob, you just need to go, I can’t have you stay here.

Answer 24

Wait! Christie I didn’t know! If I knew you were clean I wouldn’t have offered!

Question 25

That doesn’t matter! Jesus Christ, this was a terrible idea. Jacob I can’t do this anymore.

Answer 25

Christie please, I have nowhere else to go! Please, please, please, I have no one…!

Question 26

Jacob… I want to help you but I can’t even help myself.

Answer 26

I don’t have any more. OK? That was all I had.. I’ll help you get clean, alright? I don’t want you to suffer alone.

Question 27

That was all you had?

Answer 27

Yes.

Question 28

Promise?

Answer 28

I promise.

Question 29

…Ok…Fine.

Answer 29

Let’s help each other… I need to get clean too.

Question 30

Ok.

Answer 30

Ok. Were alright ok.

Question 31

I’m gonna be late for work.

Answer 31

You’ll be alright Christie. We’ll be alright.

Question 32

What you got this time?

Answer 32

I have a lot of it.

Question 33

Where does a junkie like you get this much dope?

Answer 33

I’m smooth, what can I say?

Question 34

Jacob enters house and sees Christie

Answer 34

Hey

Question 35

Hey… Where did you go?

Answer 35

Bought you some juice. Lots of sugar, lots of vitamins.

Question 36

Thanks.

Answer 36

How you feeling?

Question 37

I’m feeling.

Answer 37

Still alive, right?

Question 38

I honestly thought you weren’t coming back.

Answer 38

Where else would I go?

Question 39

Well if it’s not my place where else would you end up?

Answer 39

I don’t know. A shelter, back of someone’s car.

Question 40

What happened to you Jacob?

Answer 40

What? You mean where it all went wrong?

Question 41

Sure.

Answer 41

Do you remember anything about me?

Question 42

I remember you don’t have any parents.

Answer 42

Yep… I thought you didn’t have any parents too?

Question 43

I have one parent left… It’s my mom.

Answer 43

Oh… you still talk to her?

Question 44

I haven’t spoken to her in years.

Answer 44

Oh… I’m… sorry.

Question 45

Don’t apologize. It’s for the best… I never heard about what happened to your parents?

Answer 45

It’s complicated.

Question 46

Everybody’s life is complicated.

Answer 46

It’s just I’ve never really talked about it.

Question 47

Well I’m letting you crash here, might as well get to know how we got where we did.

Answer 47

…Ok… Well, my mom died when I was about 3, she was hit by a car. Don’t really have a memory of her. After that my Dad fell into a deep depression and from what my brother says he was never the same. We moved around quite a bit in and out of the city until we ended up here. My dad tried to date other people but that never worked out. By the time I was 6 my dad had turned to drugs to cope. At first we didn’t suspect anything but as time went by he’d just start doing it in front of me and my brother… my brother told me that dad was always strict but never abusive when we were that young. But I didn’t know that man. The only Dad I knew was always angry, always high… his abuse really kicked in by the time I was 9… at that point I wasn’t in school that much… the bullying just got to me… but my dad had no limits… he’d hit me, shove me into walls, throw me and my brother out of the house in the cold, manipulate me into feeling bad for him…. and my brother got it way worse just because he was older… there was this one time my dad left a bag of cocaine out, I was like 10 and I ingested it, and that was the first time I got high… yea

Question 48

How did he die?

Answer 48

Oh this sucked… so my brother was pretty much like a father figure to me. I was so afraid of Dad that we’d always go to each other for comfort. There was one night when I was 11, my brother and I made it a tradition to watch classic horror movies on halloween, so we were watching one and suddenly my dad comes barging in the house, screaming, accusing me and my brother of hiding his drugs. One thing led to another he started beating on both of us. He threw a bottle at me and , I was bleeding, my brother grabbed him from behind and threw him down, and then beat found a baseball bat and beat him with it. He was so full of rage. My dad was just laying there, and slowly, he started to move less. He was limp. My brother just kept beating him… I just stared. I didn’t what to do, I’ll get that image out of my head.

Question 49

What happened after?

Answer 49

Uhh… after that my brother was arrested and charged with murder. Since he was 18 they chard him as an adult.

Question 50

What happened to you?

Answer 50

Umm… my grandparents took me in but like the damage was already done. I was homeschooled till high school where they decided I should go to make friends. And well you know the rest… a screw up making bad choices

Question 51

…he always ended up relapsing one way or another.

Answer 51

Did you ever end up meeting him again?

Question 52

Jacob I know you have more stuff.

Answer 52

What? No I don’t Christie

Question 53

Just shut up and it to me please!

Answer 53

Christie I don’t have anything!

Question 54

Please! It hurts so bad!

Answer 54

Christie, you don’t need it! I won’t let you!